Wow it is hard to believe that Micheal Jackson is gone . I never really thought how I would feel or even how I should feel but I truly feel sad . Right now next to me I have a sponge ,I will explain later what a sponge is , well fuck it let me explain it now . A sponge is a person that is not on your level and drains your energy . You must stay away from sponges because they are worst than leeches ,( you know those yucky slimy things that crawl on the ground and make you sway off the path . You shouldn't sway off your path you should just crush them and keep on your path . Now look at poor Micheal or should I say lucky Micheal? Hmm.... think no more bills or gossip no more whispers or hiding . But what about the kids ? The kids ?I have been a mother longer than I have been anything else had my first child when I was just a child and he still acts like a child. And a daughter who is just a whole different child than my first child . So when do we as mothers really get to stop being mothers and be women ?I have sacrificed so much of my happiness to be a good mother . But guess what!!!! it doesn't guarantee you good kids . And even worst being a good woman and wife doesn't mean you will get a good husband or boyfriend or girlfriend . Last night I heard some very powerful women speak and in their thank yous they all mention their husbands . Husbands ,Kids , Husband, Kids . I got up there and thanked my mother for making me do the laundry . Then cracked a joke and left off stage . I met up with an old friend of mine Rah Goddess is what she has grown into , but when we lived in Newark she was Rahmelle , super focused sister from well off parents in New Rochell. I was so happy to see her , she touched my shoulder and I felt a chill . No i am not a lesbian !! in order to understand this you need to Read an Octavia Butler Book , then you will understand hopefully .So back to last night . I found out that those who are suppose to be in your life will be in your life no matter how much time goes by . So don't focused on who or what is lost , hold on to what you have found . Remember see a penny pick it up and all the day you'll have good luck .Unless you are in Manhattan. So know when to bend down and pick up stuff , and be careful. Til tomorrow comes . Song " Got to be there "
